Sunday, March 21, 2010

Discovering a new world

I'm sixteen weeks pregnant.

I feel like I'm suddenly living a life of firsts. I've always felt ready to be here one day, but it's only when it's real and happening that I've truly appreciated feeling the strangeness of it all (a human being is growing inside me--are we sure?). It's alien and animal at the same time, and it's the first time I've really marveled at it. It's also the first time I've felt this strong and vulnerable at once. I'm on the brink of a whole new territory, my life is about to change, and though people can't seem to help but remind me of just how it will change, for myself it's an excitement and mystery that feels still far away, but also so soon...

I've always been a planner. My job is about organization, and I tend to completely rearrange closets/cupboards instead of just being able to clean them. With so many unknowns and questions coming my way that I can't answer, I'm starting this page as a place to keep it all together. My experience, the preparation, the what I have yet to know...

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